23 As I said before, Jean Cocteau died before my mother. It was the most difficult moments in my life, you will understand why. I starred in the movie "Honorable Stanislas." Get by night I had a dream that Jean dies in the Blue Room Rosalie.I picked him up, went into the dining room of my childhood, put it near the stove portable room and returned to life, massaging his feet. This dream made me so impressed that he came on the set, I told him my make-up artist and dresser.To appease me, they began to assert that, if you see in a dream the death of a person dear to you, it prolongs his life for ten years. A few days later I was told on the phone that Jean a second heart attack. I rushed out into the street Montpensier. Jean once again lying on the bed in my room of the former. I knelt at his bedside.Mobility was only his eyes, they emit a great tenderness. I put my hand on it. He wanted something to say, but I stopped him. It was excruciatingly painful to realize his stupidity and helplessness.Jean, therefore, I love you so little, that I can not help you, I can not change you lives, the age, I can not give you my strength, my health! Now comes the professor Soulier. Not feeling tenderness to you that which fills my heart, he will cure you. It will cure you, it will save you.We still keep silent, my hand resting on his arm. His eyes were fixed on me. They have no fear, only kindness and understanding. Perhaps he guessed what I was thinking. He seems to bless me. He has to suffer more than any other, because it is more sensitive. Finally came the professor Soulier, calm and confident.He was surprised to learn that the morphine had no effect. He really did not understand or pretended not to understand. He increased the dosage. Twice a day, he dropped in to the patient. Day and night near the Jean duty doctor and sent to the professor nurse. Here we were constantly Edouard dermis, Francine Weisweiler, the housekeeper and I Madeleine.Tiny apartment was crowded. Karol Weisweiler was also here. Friends came to know about the health of Jean. Everyone tried to make as little noise, spoke only in a whisper. Professor Jean Soulier asked rubbing synthol legs to restore circulation. Doing massage, I remember his dream.A few days later, Jean got better. He asked us to go to the premiere of his play "The Human Voice" in "Operakomik." Karol, Dudu and I looked at this performance. Returning home, we said Jean truth: play wonderful. The film of selenium
.Denise Duval shaking, she's a great actress, having also very beautiful voice. Jean happy. All believe that the recovery period Jean is best spent in my house in the Marne, near Paris - he floor, with garden. But Jean refuses. Secretly I was told that he did not want me to know that he smokes opium again.- Tell him that I've been aware of that.